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About 60 posts into a blog and I want to create a new one. I am resisting the urge.

So now that I am back home I have been quickly reminded of all the things I have missed..as well some I haven't.

First 10 things I have missed but didn't realize:

1. Sweatshirts and socks
2. Carpet
2. Green grass
3. Garbage disposal
4. Warm water for dishes
5. Clean air
6. An oven
7. Strawberries!
8. Consistent internet
9. A full pantry
10. and last but not least...a whole room to myself!

First thing I have realized I haven't missed...allergies! I am already sneezing. Too bad because I am determined to enjoy this AMAZING weather!! 70 degrees..I seriously couldn't ask for a prettier day! I love you Memphis!

BRR

I have forgotten how cold air conditioning is. Winter clothes...here I come. I also have forgotten how nice air travel is. Blame it on bus rides in Cambodia but I started to think that dirt stained, sneezed on window curtains were typical. Everything is so nice...AND expensive. My first purchase - water - and I almost stopped breathing. Water bottles just got a significant markup. $2.50 is expensive right? I guess airports can do that. Anyways, I am so excited to be in Seoul. Only 8 hours to kill..no big deal...

ELABORATION

Consider this part two. Part one was brief...part two probably won't be. It is easy to make a general statement about life, but elaboration is a little more difficult for me. I am one of those people that is horrible at giving examples when I try to explain something. Oh well, here I go...

This trip to Cambodia has been so great in so many ways. I have enjoyed my time so much here. But as my time is coming to an end, I am realizing the questions that have surfaced here about life and people have not been answered. If I knew the right ways to handle situations, I would do it.

Yet what is the right answer to the consistent begging I see everyday? Am I just supposed to walk by? Give all that I have? I don't have this answered.

What do I do when I learn of dishonesty and abuse happening in secret? Am I supposed to say something? Do I hope someone else exposes it? I don't have this answered.

This type of grey is what bothers me. I know I am supposed to "love my neighbor", but what does loving others look like in those situations? The complexities of life and people and circumstances seem to cloud out the answer.

So where does all this leave me? Sitting...as time passes by. That isn't what I want. I want to make a difference! I want to help! If only I could figure out answers...

DECISIONS

Why does so much of the world have to be grey? I never know what to do. Black and white are much better colors!

UGH

Having what seems to be a cold...in hot weather is not a good combination. Blah.

SUGAR, SUGAR

....oh honey, honey!! ..pour some sugar on me, baby!!

This is the theme song for my life right now. Something about living in Cambodia makes me want sugar like nothing else. So bad I have eaten peeps...and am contemplating chugging honey right now. Dessert is a requirement with a meal...or even a substitute. You think I would have a constant sugar high here. It is a mystery to me.

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER

I tend to miss the trends. I always like them late...after several years of being popular. Like skinny jeans. Guess I just need some convincing that [insert object here] is actually a worthwhile investment. This now even applies to my music. More specifically...John. He is pretty mainstream. Became popular years ago. Why is it that I am just now obsessed with him? Although, I do have to say that I really like his new cd. Love = Battle. Brilliant.

But these are the songs that I actually repeat way too often..
-Assassin
-Half of My Heart
-Belief
-The Heart of Life
-Slow Dancing in a Burning Room
-Free Fallin'

Irrevelant. Yes, but I needed a break from Excel.